Hello darl. Right now i'm skyping you. Why you always want watch a video when skyping? I really feel sad you know that? :( Like our communication time is diverted into watching video and then silence between us. I really don't like this darl..... We suppose to be talking to each other, not this... Please stop wacthing video and talk to me darl.... Video can come anytime, whereas our skyping time is really limited you know that? Sooner later,you gotta sleep, I gotta go college... Haih. You always say I don't talk when you do something. You already know I don't like talking when you are doing something, I really feel.... Not appreciated whenever that happens.
Darling, I wake up early so I can skype and chat you, I'm really tired and sleepy right now. So please... Understand that I wake up early just for you :( When I skype and you do something else, I also don't feel... appreciated?... I don't know. I'm just sad right now. I really miss you, you know that? You told me you miss me too, so please talk with me, instead of watching youtube. Now.... Sooner later you sister gonna turn off the lights to sleep, then you are going to sleep as well.. See the time for our 'face to face' communication wasted for this?
Please don't do this to me darl. Love you.
From: The Darl
Thursday 28 January 2016
Friday 22 January 2016
22nd January 2016
Hello the darl~ Me misu you alot alot alot!!!! hehehe
Right now is 12:01 AM and 4:01 PM at your place. You told me you wanted to sleep, so we ended the skype. I also think you need to rest more cause you are going to play badminton with your friends soon.
Darling arh. I just want so say something out.. You know when you told me that you are going to go out makan with all guys, even though in the end you didn't, I know I very the jelly? I really jelly when you got out with whole group of guys :( I know they your friends and you still love me the super the alot forever, but..... me ish not happy when all guys you know? I always feel like when there is a girl with group of guys, I really feel discomfort looky at that? I ish not telling the darl to stop going out with them. Just me want to share what me feel you know? Me still love the darl super the alot. hehe. So.... you can go out with them... just no to often I guess? If you remember today, my english quiz for 5/10 because of technical issue. I was super mad when that happened. Like.... all perfect scores in a row, suddenly a 50%...... if 80% maybe okay la... but... haih. When I do homework for maths, I get super irritated when make small mistakes, indicating me losing my patients already. Plus you told me you gonna makan with group of whole guys.... Made me feel even more irritated.
Darling. Please don't go out until late night there please? I don't likey you out at night.... all guy friend also doesn't mean is safe bo.... I just really don't trust people there very much you know that? If anything were to........ miu...... it really could severe our long distance bond you know that? Me cannot see you immediately.... :( SO... please be safe... for family and US.
Love you.
From: The Darl.
Right now is 12:01 AM and 4:01 PM at your place. You told me you wanted to sleep, so we ended the skype. I also think you need to rest more cause you are going to play badminton with your friends soon.
Darling arh. I just want so say something out.. You know when you told me that you are going to go out makan with all guys, even though in the end you didn't, I know I very the jelly? I really jelly when you got out with whole group of guys :( I know they your friends and you still love me the super the alot forever, but..... me ish not happy when all guys you know? I always feel like when there is a girl with group of guys, I really feel discomfort looky at that? I ish not telling the darl to stop going out with them. Just me want to share what me feel you know? Me still love the darl super the alot. hehe. So.... you can go out with them... just no to often I guess? If you remember today, my english quiz for 5/10 because of technical issue. I was super mad when that happened. Like.... all perfect scores in a row, suddenly a 50%...... if 80% maybe okay la... but... haih. When I do homework for maths, I get super irritated when make small mistakes, indicating me losing my patients already. Plus you told me you gonna makan with group of whole guys.... Made me feel even more irritated.
Darling. Please don't go out until late night there please? I don't likey you out at night.... all guy friend also doesn't mean is safe bo.... I just really don't trust people there very much you know that? If anything were to........ miu...... it really could severe our long distance bond you know that? Me cannot see you immediately.... :( SO... please be safe... for family and US.
Love you.
From: The Darl.
Thursday 14 January 2016
14th January 2016
Hello darl, it's 4:37pm here an 8:37 am there. You are currently walking to university I guess? Right now I'm just waiting for you to reach university.
Darl, I've been wondering. You have many friends there, you all play games, have many group chats, all makan together at night. That is the type of activity I always wanted to have here. But look at here, my orientation is bullshit. What game we play? We play bingo, that's all. And we do what? Listen, do stuff, set up shits. The bingo goes like.... the whole entire hall of new students, everyone gets a paper with full of descriptions, like wear yellow shirt, can play music, loves to cook and so on. You have to fill your paper up with names of new students. Well, it is alright I guess, make few acquaintances from there. But no permanent friends.
Your class goes as fixed by the education system, whereas mine, gotta choose classes. And many friends I made that day, doesn't take my class or course of learning. We were given this paper to guide us what class should we take. Mine is Biology and I should take classes that is in the guide. Even lets say that there is a friend who take Biology course as well. He have to take a mathematics class of 141, like me. It doesn't mean we same class you know that? In one day Maths 141 class got almost 5. Like Class A, B, C, D and E. He or she might take the one I don't take.... You get it?.. Even after I pass my Maths 141, the friends I have here in 141, won't 100% be in the same class with me after we pass the class, not to mention they can drop anytime they want. I'll explain more of there system here.Just incase you still lost. So it goes like, classes are just there, and you have the choice to follow that class or not. If you want, of course you need to go register for it. And one bitchy thing is, to register classes, they all have another additional charge of bullshit. Like saying I don't pay the college enough. Imagine like you take maths, English, chemistry and economic. You have to still pay the 4 subjects you took. I have no freaking idea what is the tuition fee is for where they still charge us further in the end. Classes are like 15-60 additional dollar by the way. Haih.
So yea that's the system.... So what I wanna say is that.... I don't have a fix friend here.... Unless like we together want to continue this class and register for that specific class. Making friends here is not as easy in Malaysia darl. I always find this post where it says finding friends in college is super hard. It's really no joke here darl. Reasons for that, is one, some people here are couples who enroll together and their life is just both of them. Second, no class I have is all around same age, ranges from 16-30+. No joke, I have 2 classmates who are already a mother. One of my friend is also a married, 26 years old from Indonesia. So, most of those who are older.... seem to avoid making friends with the younger... They seem not comfortable doing so. Third, many of the deeper friends I have, smokes and do those stuff. If I want to be even more closer to them, I really have to follow them smoking for them to accept me. Really, the whole group even girls smoke. I don't have the kuai kuai type guys here you know that?
When you so spirited doing games with your friends.... You know that I very jealous of that? Many group chats, I jealous too.... You have one group of friends you feel comfortable with.... I am extremely jealous of that. Sometimes texting you makes me feel even more lonely you know that? You show me your friends, your life there, instead of me happy happy you there, I jealous of that. I know... I'm a bad boy... Please forgive me for such an attitude :( Just show me okay? I jealous or no jealous.... I need to keep update your life on me. I guess your type of person is more.... weaker to loneliness? I hate loneliness as well..... But if there is a choice of only either you or me going to be lonely in their university life, I'll take to be lonely, I want you be happy.
I want to share something selfish about me. Remember I don't want to date girls with many friends? I can't remember if I ever tell you the whole reason for that... It goes like this. I always want to be the one and only one that my girl always care. I always want to be the one and only one my girl text.... Ever since I'm born, I'm the type to seek attention you know that? I always want attention. Like if I cook, I expect my girl to immediately praise me, I always want that praise in order to be more motivated.
The example of words that always motivate me are :
'You did great, I love it,'
'Looks good'
'.....but I still like it :) '
If I failed on making something:
'It doesn't look so good, but surely one day you can make a better one :) '
Notice that I put on emoji? Did you know that smiling emoji from you is something I really happy to receive?
I feel even more lonely now. Later when you have lots of friends, you switch chats here and there everyday when I text you. I'm very selfish and I always want me to be the only one you chat and stuff. If it is... important university things, homework, serious things, I don't mind that. Just if very friend friend one... I quite hate it. Example you switch chat with 5 people excluding me.... I in the end feel very the not special. That's... one of my dark side for you to know... I'm sorry for that.
If you noticed something, ' I'm very selfish and I always want me to be the only one you chat and stuff '. I think that sound familiar to yourself. Remember the time when you were friend with that girl... that forces you to change a lot? You told me that, when she talk to other people, you feel jelly. That's the feeling I have. I always want to be your special one you know that? I can't stop you from chatting your friends,making more friend as well, as it go against one of my view of you, as well my deduction before dating you. People change and we can't stop that..... You may tell me to 'get used to it', ' to accept it', 'grow up', ' what can I do?', 'find your way'. Those words darl, you will NEVER ever tell me that. It sounds very provocative and feels like you just want me to change and get used to the new you. I know that is what suppose to be done, but it really feels like.... I'm not getting any support, even if you tell me 'All I can do is to support you'. It feels like..... you just let me be, to change. It takes me and you to change you know that? Like that time about the job thing.... takes you to sacrifice the work so I can learn more and let you have more freedom. Like a month ago you went drinking? I didn't complain...Cause I just feel you should spend time with others before going away, even though girls going to bar is my number one priority thing to keep away from. Oh, one random fact, I hate the selfie of you after drinking. It really makes me feel like I should have been there to take care of you. And what I hate is the feeling of not being able to be with you to jaga you.
So....To summarize the whole thing, what I want say is that, I'm jealous when you have many friends, I don't really like it when you switch chats to other people or group while chatting with me unless memang important one, basically I always want to be treated special by you... Darl, you don't have to take these seriously, it's just minor minor sekia stuff I feel. One day, surely I'll learn something from it.I just want you to think about me when playing games with friends, when doing not serious works... Imagine if I'm there, imagine this and that with me. Also, even if you are busy with games, I really really really appreciate it for you just have 20 seconds of texting me the reason being busy and vow when here is already night. I just really want our love to continue existing, you get it? I always think of you anytime anywhere, always want you to be by my side. I really wanna kidnap you and work with me by the vegetable farm in a peaceful place. Hehe.
Darl, I have 2 rules I wanna out up here:
1) No going out with group of guys in any conditions except the group have at least 35% is girl including you then I may accept.
2) No going to bar at any conditions.
You know you can put rules on me right? Even though you might say ' I don't want to restrict your life.' But still.... I think rules memang important. Sorry darl, but I really want you to listen for this one.
That's to all my childish feel. I write this message so I can feel better right now...Darling... I hope you still love me alot after reading this? I always want you to praise me when I accomplish something? I always want happy emojis. I very the sekia you know that? Hehe. They said, your husband is a big child you have to take care for the rest of your life. Hehe. I really love you, know that? I really do :)
I guess this letter went to far already hehe. I'll update with you soon.
Love from me.
From: The Darl
Darl, I've been wondering. You have many friends there, you all play games, have many group chats, all makan together at night. That is the type of activity I always wanted to have here. But look at here, my orientation is bullshit. What game we play? We play bingo, that's all. And we do what? Listen, do stuff, set up shits. The bingo goes like.... the whole entire hall of new students, everyone gets a paper with full of descriptions, like wear yellow shirt, can play music, loves to cook and so on. You have to fill your paper up with names of new students. Well, it is alright I guess, make few acquaintances from there. But no permanent friends.
Your class goes as fixed by the education system, whereas mine, gotta choose classes. And many friends I made that day, doesn't take my class or course of learning. We were given this paper to guide us what class should we take. Mine is Biology and I should take classes that is in the guide. Even lets say that there is a friend who take Biology course as well. He have to take a mathematics class of 141, like me. It doesn't mean we same class you know that? In one day Maths 141 class got almost 5. Like Class A, B, C, D and E. He or she might take the one I don't take.... You get it?.. Even after I pass my Maths 141, the friends I have here in 141, won't 100% be in the same class with me after we pass the class, not to mention they can drop anytime they want. I'll explain more of there system here.Just incase you still lost. So it goes like, classes are just there, and you have the choice to follow that class or not. If you want, of course you need to go register for it. And one bitchy thing is, to register classes, they all have another additional charge of bullshit. Like saying I don't pay the college enough. Imagine like you take maths, English, chemistry and economic. You have to still pay the 4 subjects you took. I have no freaking idea what is the tuition fee is for where they still charge us further in the end. Classes are like 15-60 additional dollar by the way. Haih.
So yea that's the system.... So what I wanna say is that.... I don't have a fix friend here.... Unless like we together want to continue this class and register for that specific class. Making friends here is not as easy in Malaysia darl. I always find this post where it says finding friends in college is super hard. It's really no joke here darl. Reasons for that, is one, some people here are couples who enroll together and their life is just both of them. Second, no class I have is all around same age, ranges from 16-30+. No joke, I have 2 classmates who are already a mother. One of my friend is also a married, 26 years old from Indonesia. So, most of those who are older.... seem to avoid making friends with the younger... They seem not comfortable doing so. Third, many of the deeper friends I have, smokes and do those stuff. If I want to be even more closer to them, I really have to follow them smoking for them to accept me. Really, the whole group even girls smoke. I don't have the kuai kuai type guys here you know that?
When you so spirited doing games with your friends.... You know that I very jealous of that? Many group chats, I jealous too.... You have one group of friends you feel comfortable with.... I am extremely jealous of that. Sometimes texting you makes me feel even more lonely you know that? You show me your friends, your life there, instead of me happy happy you there, I jealous of that. I know... I'm a bad boy... Please forgive me for such an attitude :( Just show me okay? I jealous or no jealous.... I need to keep update your life on me. I guess your type of person is more.... weaker to loneliness? I hate loneliness as well..... But if there is a choice of only either you or me going to be lonely in their university life, I'll take to be lonely, I want you be happy.
I want to share something selfish about me. Remember I don't want to date girls with many friends? I can't remember if I ever tell you the whole reason for that... It goes like this. I always want to be the one and only one that my girl always care. I always want to be the one and only one my girl text.... Ever since I'm born, I'm the type to seek attention you know that? I always want attention. Like if I cook, I expect my girl to immediately praise me, I always want that praise in order to be more motivated.
The example of words that always motivate me are :
'You did great, I love it,'
'Looks good'
'.....but I still like it :) '
If I failed on making something:
'It doesn't look so good, but surely one day you can make a better one :) '
Notice that I put on emoji? Did you know that smiling emoji from you is something I really happy to receive?
I feel even more lonely now. Later when you have lots of friends, you switch chats here and there everyday when I text you. I'm very selfish and I always want me to be the only one you chat and stuff. If it is... important university things, homework, serious things, I don't mind that. Just if very friend friend one... I quite hate it. Example you switch chat with 5 people excluding me.... I in the end feel very the not special. That's... one of my dark side for you to know... I'm sorry for that.
If you noticed something, ' I'm very selfish and I always want me to be the only one you chat and stuff '. I think that sound familiar to yourself. Remember the time when you were friend with that girl... that forces you to change a lot? You told me that, when she talk to other people, you feel jelly. That's the feeling I have. I always want to be your special one you know that? I can't stop you from chatting your friends,making more friend as well, as it go against one of my view of you, as well my deduction before dating you. People change and we can't stop that..... You may tell me to 'get used to it', ' to accept it', 'grow up', ' what can I do?', 'find your way'. Those words darl, you will NEVER ever tell me that. It sounds very provocative and feels like you just want me to change and get used to the new you. I know that is what suppose to be done, but it really feels like.... I'm not getting any support, even if you tell me 'All I can do is to support you'. It feels like..... you just let me be, to change. It takes me and you to change you know that? Like that time about the job thing.... takes you to sacrifice the work so I can learn more and let you have more freedom. Like a month ago you went drinking? I didn't complain...Cause I just feel you should spend time with others before going away, even though girls going to bar is my number one priority thing to keep away from. Oh, one random fact, I hate the selfie of you after drinking. It really makes me feel like I should have been there to take care of you. And what I hate is the feeling of not being able to be with you to jaga you.
So....To summarize the whole thing, what I want say is that, I'm jealous when you have many friends, I don't really like it when you switch chats to other people or group while chatting with me unless memang important one, basically I always want to be treated special by you... Darl, you don't have to take these seriously, it's just minor minor sekia stuff I feel. One day, surely I'll learn something from it.I just want you to think about me when playing games with friends, when doing not serious works... Imagine if I'm there, imagine this and that with me. Also, even if you are busy with games, I really really really appreciate it for you just have 20 seconds of texting me the reason being busy and vow when here is already night. I just really want our love to continue existing, you get it? I always think of you anytime anywhere, always want you to be by my side. I really wanna kidnap you and work with me by the vegetable farm in a peaceful place. Hehe.
Darl, I have 2 rules I wanna out up here:
1) No going out with group of guys in any conditions except the group have at least 35% is girl including you then I may accept.
2) No going to bar at any conditions.
You know you can put rules on me right? Even though you might say ' I don't want to restrict your life.' But still.... I think rules memang important. Sorry darl, but I really want you to listen for this one.
That's to all my childish feel. I write this message so I can feel better right now...Darling... I hope you still love me alot after reading this? I always want you to praise me when I accomplish something? I always want happy emojis. I very the sekia you know that? Hehe. They said, your husband is a big child you have to take care for the rest of your life. Hehe. I really love you, know that? I really do :)
I guess this letter went to far already hehe. I'll update with you soon.
Love from me.
From: The Darl
Sunday 10 January 2016
10th January 2016
To: The Darl
Hello again. Right now is 11:30 pm here, so means 3 :30 in after there. It is your first long day of university, yaayy. Hope you can go through it fine? Hehe. I'm always here to support you.
Darling arh, I the sleepy right now. I want to chat you but you the busy in university.... I really scare if the rest of 3 years I can't text you at this time..... I'll be super the sad if I don't receive my daily vows..... I'm sure you don't likey as well.... But today is your first, so I understand. I want you to make friends, but I dont want you to make bad friends okay? I trust your choice. But some times your choice also makes mistakes, so I'll always be there to guide you yea? I really love you, know that?
If anything happens to you, I'll be super the sad. I can't be there physically to help or something... So please be safe for me and others who loves you. I always love you. Hehe
I've been doing nothing for hours and I miss texting you. I really want to text you right now. Mew. Darling, don't make too many guy friends okay? Remember college guys are not like lodge guys or other school guys. If they are single since young, or many years, their sexual drive is super strong you know that? Remember my first kiss? Yeah, like that. Haha. So please be careful with those guys. They may both look and act nice to girls, but deep within them, what they really want, is to release their sexual aggression. Not all guys are like that, some do, some don't. So do, but weak drive, and the other ones are siao. Usually the siao one tend to be more smart in a way to trick girls, cause they really want it. These siao people also have 2 categories, one they do all slow and steady, one is fast. Means like example a girl date them, one week later they'll ask for sex already. Hahaha.... Scary..... yea......
So darl, remember not to seduce them as well. It's not a game to play with guys. Really. Only can play with me. Hehe XD So yea. If you seduce them just lightly.... They can interpret it as if you want to have 'that' with them. Don't EVER give signs to guys, they may get it wrongly.... If the guy is already the very siao one, get super wrongly as well, can be very dangerous you know? I'm not sure.... but I think this can cause guys to.... forcefully do that to girls.... I hate that word,I really hate that word.
So one more time darl, DO NOT EVER TRY TO SEDUCE GUYS. Not only i jelly, but they can get wrong message. Okay darl? Promise? Loveeeee from meee~ hehe . Kiss you deep deep.
So darl, gonna brushy teeth and sleep.... So, have a good university life and be safe there~
From:
THE DARL
Monday 4 January 2016
4th January 2016
To: The Darl
Hello love. Right now you were resting because of the long tiring traffic. You are going to go home from your lunch.
Did you know, just leaving my text without you replying is not something i want to experience especially when we are apart? You know that I miss you alot? And our time of texting is really quite limited? I really love you alot darl, so please don't leave my text hanging like that yea? Love you alot.
My first day as you know is really bad and good...... I told you the story already that things start to fall apart when I feel very happy, destroying all my mood and everything. But after when seeing your smiling picture, I felt like there's nothing I can do and that, my feet are finally on the ground again.
When I rented the maths book, the woman in charge there said my bracelets are very beautiful. I was so happy when she said that to me. I told her that you made it for me. I really actually hoped that she would ask about my ring and that I would tell her about you.
Darling, right now as I type, I'm waiting for your reply..... Yayyyy finally you replied. Did you know? If you use emojis, means you are in a happy mode? That's what I notice about you. When you Haha is long, means you are happy? The longer the happier you are. Hehe. Kiss from me.
I hope our relationship doesn't break during our time apart. I pray that we will learn more by being with each other than having one problem into the list.
I always love you darl. I'll be stronger so that I can love you from where ever we are. I believe that my feeling towards you now is enough to last quite long. Hehe. But something always breaks my expectation of myself, so I'll watch out.
Love you always.
From: The Darl
Hello love. Right now you were resting because of the long tiring traffic. You are going to go home from your lunch.
Did you know, just leaving my text without you replying is not something i want to experience especially when we are apart? You know that I miss you alot? And our time of texting is really quite limited? I really love you alot darl, so please don't leave my text hanging like that yea? Love you alot.
My first day as you know is really bad and good...... I told you the story already that things start to fall apart when I feel very happy, destroying all my mood and everything. But after when seeing your smiling picture, I felt like there's nothing I can do and that, my feet are finally on the ground again.
When I rented the maths book, the woman in charge there said my bracelets are very beautiful. I was so happy when she said that to me. I told her that you made it for me. I really actually hoped that she would ask about my ring and that I would tell her about you.
Darling, right now as I type, I'm waiting for your reply..... Yayyyy finally you replied. Did you know? If you use emojis, means you are in a happy mode? That's what I notice about you. When you Haha is long, means you are happy? The longer the happier you are. Hehe. Kiss from me.
I hope our relationship doesn't break during our time apart. I pray that we will learn more by being with each other than having one problem into the list.
I always love you darl. I'll be stronger so that I can love you from where ever we are. I believe that my feeling towards you now is enough to last quite long. Hehe. But something always breaks my expectation of myself, so I'll watch out.
Love you always.
From: The Darl
Saturday 2 January 2016
What is it about?
To all strangers. This blog is for me to write letters to my girl in the other side of the world.
We have of course separated. I am now in USA while she is still in Malaysia. And therefore, our real challenge begins.
We have of course separated. I am now in USA while she is still in Malaysia. And therefore, our real challenge begins.
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